I am not sure how are we going to the cemetery this Monday... with the recent robbery, I don't think my dad would allow us to leave the house unattended that quick. It would probably just the two of them going to my lola's puntod...but I also want to go. I miss my nanay (that was what I call her when she was still alive) so much and the yearly visit on her remains satisfy a bit of that longing.
I am a lola's girl...I have always been! As a child I slept beside her, while my younger sister slept with my parents. She took care of me while my mom was still working, gave me a bath at our "lababo" then. She showered me with junk food and made sure I get my afternoon siestas on time. I miss her so much! I still dream of her...sometimes...and waking up from those dreams is always the hardest. I remember her face...very vividly. She was a sight to behold. I love her so much.
When she had that stroke that took her life, I was about 14 years old, we were watching TV in the living room. We always watch TV everynight. There was no cable yet that time. I couln't exactly remember what we were watching. I just remember looking at her... she was staring at me. After that was a blur. All i can remember was my dad carrying her on his arms, taking her to the hospital. My sister and I was left in the house. We saw her the next day, on the hospital bed, in coma.
I cannot explain how painful it is to lose someone you love dearly. But I know she loved me and I loved her. I remember telling her way way back that I want her to be present on my wedding day. And now that I am preparing for my big day...I know that she is watching over me...I know that she will be there.
Nanay, for all the memories you have given me, for all the love you have shared with me, for giving me my mother who is the greatest mom on earth... I thank you.
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