Been having these stomach pains since Monday, starts as soon as I get up from bed and lingers till I get to the office… disappears around 10am then comes back after I eat lunch and then stays until around dinner time. Last time I had this kind of stomach cramps was right before I took the boards in 1999.

All signals point to only one source….anxiety over my barely two weeks wait till the big day. My emotions are running high and low for the past week, one minute super duper high, the next plummeting down to lows unforeseen even by me. It’s really been a roller coaster ride.

On the side I am very happy and proud that I am in any way pressured or agitated because of things that still needs to be done. About 99% of everything has been sorted, planned and worked on already. The remaining 1% just accounts for the last minute preparations for the big day. Thanks to almost 1 ½ years of planning with W@W. I’ve been a w@wie since Q1 of 2004, have seen my batchmates’ wedding pix and supplier ratings, have seen them graduate and move on to N@W. I can safely say that I have been witness to atleast 2 batches of brides at W@W.

As I look at my wedding check list now, almost all boxes are already checked. I feel a bit of sadness, every lunch time I think of what still needs to be done but see that there isn’t anything to do anymore. I think I just have to relax and enjoy the last few days of planning and preparing.

Honestly right now while typing I feel so much emotion well inside me… sadness, happiness, excitement, fear, I feel an outpouring of love to my husband to be, to my parents who have always been there, to the new family I will start.

I guess everyone goes through this stage.

Created: Thursday, September 01, 2005

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